December 2008
15 posts
The blonde doll smiling behind us says one day...
ive got a secret.
i think my parents are catching on. shit.
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current issues/thoughts/worries
what the fuck am i going to do for my senior project?
stop buying shit that is produced by chinese pla owned factories
i am totally serious when i say ill move to some island with you
read everything
what im trying to say..
4 more days. i want you to enjoy your vacation. i just miss you.
played tennis with the ex. told him about you. he asks the weirdest questions. i think i kind of broke his heart a little. i didnt give him the answers he was looking for. exactly the opposite really. the whole time i was with him, i was missing you even more. i think thats a good sign that i made the right decision.
Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the...
listening to broken social scene and missing you. and your family, strangely enough. i love my family but yours accepts me so much more than mine.
the 30th feels like forever away.
permanent marker
you showed me true love and loyalty. i owe you the same.
dont say i didnt warn you
trying to get back to atl for the rest of break. maybe i can pick up my old job back there. i’d be a lot better off there, with the people i love than here, alone.
i guess i got some of my wishes but at what cost?
and then i did...
fuck. i still think of you even though i have the most amazing boy a girl could ask for. seriously what is wrong with me?
i broke down and talked to you today and its killing me inside. thank you for apologizing. doesnt make things any easier though.
its days like today and moments like these that make me want to be a robot so bad.
blink 182 and bonfires
spent the weekend with bryan and his dad and sister at his dads farm. i thought it was going to be weird but it was awesome. played with horses. saw embarrasing family photos. got shit houses with his fam and roasted marshmellows around a campfire.
couldnt have asked for a better weekend
i think i used to have a voice
i have nothing to say to him. its not even his fault. just a bad situation he was put in. fuck his parents for doing this to him. but fuck this situation. its all too familiar and i dont think i can deal. i have such little tolerance for disappointment. hes trying so hard and well.. im just not.
monday im shipping off my application. which means ive got to edit the facebook and all that...
a perfect circle
back to savannah again. about 3 months and 250 miles away from atlanta.
trying to figure out my senior project as well as competitions and finish up that portfolio. oh and applying for jobs.
ringholz thinks i should get an MBA.
im hoping the next 3 days fly by. and that the nightmares ive been having stop.
one day this chalk outline will circle this city
why do i do the things that i do?
one night to be confused
this place is a ghost town. i hate going to bed alone. two nights alone then i can go back…
we are nowhere and its now...
not much to say. im still in atlanta and still being pulled in too many directions. i should have left days ago but i cant bring myself to pack up and leave.
its strange to look back on the path you have traveled and see the steps you took with 20/20
backstabbing never seemed so friendly
first weekend of break in atl.. awesome.
nyc.. fell in love with it. distance didnt give me any clarity though.
second weekend in atl.. awesome again. took a trip to the mountains saturday night which was fab. but now that im back in the city life is confusing again. i’m being pulled in so many different directions im not even sure which way is up anymore.
decision time is...